Yes, I am still around.  Since last fall I have had some rough times.  I know that I will miss the girls forever, I know that it will never be okay, but I felt like I had fallen back down a dark hole.  I did not share with anyone, only my wonderful hubby, I simply did nothing except go to work and come home.  No letters, no dinners out, no Christmas cards!   Pretending when anyone was around. Well, maybe we have found part of the problem.....hormones!  Yikes, after my "surgery" last July the doc wanted to see how I would do on my own, well I didn't even thing about it affecting me.  I am happy to say that about a month ago I called the doc and told them something was wrong. I worried that they would find nothing wrong and say I was depressed and put me on some meds.  The good news was that the blood work came back "bad".  (I say bad because it came back that my numbers were all whacked out) this was good news.  I am happy to say that after a little more than three weeks of nice little hormone pills I am not crying everyday, I actually feel better. 

I know that there will always be those times that missing the girls makes me cry, I know that there will always be those moments that make the memories flood back so quickly that it takes your breath away and catches you off guard.  And I am thankful for those memories.

Here is an Easter Photo:

I love you girls

Happy Anniversary and the Sunday Paper

As I was reading the paper I found this:
BRYANTS CELEBRATE 30TH ANNIVERSARY

Wade and Teresa Bryant were united in marriage on September 13, 1980 in Midland, Texas.

They have been blessed with 3 children and 7 grandchildren; Trisha and Brent Lightfoot, their four children, Jonathan, Trek, Caden, and Megan Lea. Christopher and Shannon Bryant, their two children, Tyler and Madison, all of Midland, Texas. Megan and her daughter, Kendall Bryant, whom are lovingly watching over them in Heaven.

Thank you Mom and Dad for all you have done for us. We love you!

Here is the link: to the paper also:
http://www.mywesttexas.com/life/celebrations/anniversaries/article_f3e0bc29-40fe-5652-bbdd-78832dd7cb0b.html

How wonderful are my children!  Thank you all.  We love you.

I miss you girls

All color cake

I make cakes for the grandkids birthdays.  I have made batman, spiderman, superman, winnie the pooh, clowns, bowling ball and pin, and even a bakugan cake.  So when Caden was deciding his cake, he told me "I just want an all color cake".  So here is what I did:
  With a white cake mix and food colors I made all colors and swirled them.  It turned out kinda neat.  And best of all when Caden saw it he said " Yep, that is just what I wanted."   Awww...makes a Nana smile.

Love you girls

Kentucky and a Hysterectomy

What a title!  LOL

I attended a conference in Louisville Kentucky this month.  They had some good sessions for work, so it was worth my time, and of course I got to sight see.  Went to the Louisville Slugger Museum, if you ever have the chance it is a great tour.  http://www.sluggermuseum.org/visitorguide.aspx

Rode on the Belle of Louisville, what an awesome original steamship.  The oldest still working.  http://www.belleoflouisville.org/   We went down to the steam engines and watched them work. 

Downtown Lousiville has a free trolley system, it was awesome to ride and see the city.  Louisville has Fourth Street Live.  It is like one great big party outdoors, concerts, etc.  Jason Jones/ and The Dirt Drifters were playing the night we were there, (new band).  http://www.4thstlive.com/      http://www.jasonjonesmusic.com/          http://www.thedirtdrifters.com/

Over all it was a great time.

And now after many issues I am recovering from a Hysterectomy.  It is not near as bad as I thought it would be.  The great thing is that they were able to do it as a Laparoscopic surgery.  He was able to leave one ovary so that is a good thing, but everything else is gone.  I had surgery Thursday morning, came home yesterday and this morning I feel pretty good.  Gonna be sore for a while, you know how it is when they cut on your tummy, and no lifting, mopping, vacumn, etc for 4 to 6 weeks, so not too bad.    I will be happy to "pay" this small price to no longer go through what I did every month. 

School is starting up, I have to be back this coming week.  Hope everyone had a great summer.

I Love you Girls.

beach photos

We had a great time at the beach in June.  The weather was perfect and we spent each day as beach bums.
Hunting crabs at dusk and building sand castles!  See the Thomas the Train castle!  Too cute huh?  You can see the townhouse we have stayed at for the last two years behind our awning. 

I miss you girls. 

Some Favorite Photos

I have been sorting and cleaning the last few weeks.  As I do I come across things that make me smile or laugh or yes even cry.  I have found some photos recently that I love, quite a few actually, they are from before my digital camera so I think I will scan a few at a time and share. 

I am on the last room now, my office/scrapbook space--holy cow what a mess , but I will plow through, even though sometimes it just seems like I am moving stuff from one side of the room to the other.  LOL

Megan and Kendall's rooms are the exception, they are still the same.  Sometimes it makes us pause in the hallway and shed some tears, sometimes it brings peace to walk in and sit on Megan's bed for a bit, or rock in the nursery rocker.  Maybe one day......

Here are some fab photos!  I love them.  They are all from August and September of 2004.

I love you girls.

The Beach

Here we are at the beach.  We come every year to celebrate Megan and Kendall's lives.  We arrived on Friday afternoon.  The water and sand have been wonderful.


I love you girls