Yes, I am still around.  Since last fall I have had some rough times.  I know that I will miss the girls forever, I know that it will never be okay, but I felt like I had fallen back down a dark hole.  I did not share with anyone, only my wonderful hubby, I simply did nothing except go to work and come home.  No letters, no dinners out, no Christmas cards!   Pretending when anyone was around. Well, maybe we have found part of the problem.....hormones!  Yikes, after my "surgery" last July the doc wanted to see how I would do on my own, well I didn't even thing about it affecting me.  I am happy to say that about a month ago I called the doc and told them something was wrong. I worried that they would find nothing wrong and say I was depressed and put me on some meds.  The good news was that the blood work came back "bad".  (I say bad because it came back that my numbers were all whacked out) this was good news.  I am happy to say that after a little more than three weeks of nice little hormone pills I am not crying everyday, I actually feel better. 

I know that there will always be those times that missing the girls makes me cry, I know that there will always be those moments that make the memories flood back so quickly that it takes your breath away and catches you off guard.  And I am thankful for those memories.

Here is an Easter Photo:

I love you girls