Well lets see, I have not been doing so great at this or life. Got really bogged down in the holidays and then Kendall's birthday and other "firsts".
Kendall's birthday went well. We ordered a wonderful balloon bouquet and placed on their headstone, and Trisha made a giant cake cutout painted hot pink with "diamonds" and glitter and a #1 on top that we put there too. We had a picnic lunch and cake with the girls and Trek reminded us that we had to sing happy birthday. Megan's friends came as well as the family. My sister brought balloons for us to release. We wrote messages on them and then let them all go. It was beautiful and as the balloons rose two of them separated from the "pack" and flew up faster and to the side of the rest. I miss that baby girl.
Shannon's baby shower was the next weekend. It was a beautiful shower, but the memories from just a year ago were tough. What joy that new baby girl is already showering on our family. Each time I go to the store I find her some new clothes. She is already so very spoiled.
Jonathan's 1st grade program was this week. It was so cute, he played a little pig on old mcdonalds farm. The program was called ee-i-ee-i--oops.
As for me, or us, I am tired of feeling down. But then again, I think I would be upset if I was up? How wierd is that. I do make it through the day sometimes now without bawling, but not a minute goes by that I do not think of the girls. We are coming up on Easter and I remember last year, Megan was so excited to make Kendall's first easter basket and she dyed eggs with us. We shopped for her first easter dress and it was such a wonderful day. I am already asking myself how I am going to make it those days.
Thank God for friends. We are so blessed and so very thankful for all of our friends and family, close and far, who continue to call, write, email and visit us. Without understanding at all, and I pray they never have too, they continue to urge us to go on living in various ways. There is no way to tell everyone what they have done and still do for us. It is difficult at times to know what to say for them and for us, how much do you share?
We are going today to place spring flowers and Easter decorations at the cemetary. It was cleaning week at the cemetary so we had to remove all items for the week.
I love you girls.