Well I made it through my birthday and today is Wade's. It is hard to think about the fact that the girls are not here. My kids surprised us last night with a night in the country at a place to shoot clay disks. It was good for stress, that is for sure. They of course kept it a complete secret as usual. They are very good at things like that. I know that Megan would have loved it, the secret and the shooting. She always loved to surprise us.
Megan's friends have kept me in the loop also. They brought me cards and Tonya made me a wonderful serving tray with Megan and Kendall on it. She is so sweet.
School has been keeping me occupied during the day, but when 4 comes around I find that I don't want to come home. The house is empty.
Still waiting for them to install the headstone at the cemetary. The vase did not arrive with it so they are waiting still I think.
I still feel like I am going nuts, doesn't seem that I can talk about that to anybody really. It doesn't even make sense to me.
I miss you both so very much, I love you.