Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Do you think?

Do you think I will ever wake and not feel like I am hit with a cement block? I mean I know I will always remember, never forget, but will there come a time that it does not hit me like that everytime I wake up? I asked Wade that this morning when we woke up, he understands exactly what I am saying, but he doesn't know the answer either.

I am so lucky to have him. He is there for me no matter what. Yesterday as I left the bank I lost it. I have no idea what triggered it, but I was just crying like crazy. I sat in the car and called him, told him I needed to just talk. He was ready to come get me, but I told him I just needed to talk and settle down. I hope I am a help to him too.

I love you girls.

3 comments:

Bee said...

I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I can't even give you a answer. I can imagine losing a your child and GD is the hardest anyone can go through! I don't know if it will get easier in time.. ((hugs)) I am here if you need a ear..

Geri said...

I haven't lost a child, so I can't honestly say I know how you feel. I can't imagine the pain in your heart. I did lose a husband, and father of my son to a drunk driving accident. One minute he was a alive and vibrant, and the next - nothing ... ever again ... but from personal experience I can tell you that in time it will get easier. The hurt never complaintly goes away, but in time it will get easier. You will be able to look at pictures and pull up old memories without the tears. IT will get easier for you. Hang in there, and when the emotions come... don't fight it. They were beautiful people and important to you . . . its ok to miss that and to grieve.
much love!!!
Geri

tstamp said...

Your in my thoughts and prayers. Its not easy losing a child. It is always with you. What a tragedy for you. {hugs and more hugs}
so sorry your going thru this